A strange thing has been happening lately, and I’m almost scared to write about it. I don’t want to frighten it, or make it stop happening, whatever it is.
A couple Thursdays ago I went to my neighbour’s house for a tea and catch-up. While talking to her about my latest perceived obstacle in my career path, I suddenly said, “I think I need to ditch this route. Something about it just doesn’t feel right, I’m going against my grain.”
I felt really light when I said it, even though this kind of left me back at Square One. I didn’t really want to be at Square One because 2016, I had declared, was my year to shine. Does anyone really shine at Square One? I didn’t know, but at that point, I was tired of banging my head against the wall trying to move along a project that was kind of morphing into something I didn’t really want.
I am not kidding you when I say this, but from that very night and over the next 8 days, 4 major opportunities virtually landed in my lap. While all related to writing and speaking, these didn’t have a whole heck of a lot to do with my original focus for this year. Not directly, anyway. I can see how they will all contribute to the success of anything I want to do going forward, though. I guess Square One isn’t such a bad place to be.
So, what happened? Where did this shower of opportunities come from? What started it all?
I think it was a combination of a few things. First, I let go of something – not just the project I was working on, but also the idea of needing to be doing a particular thing at a particular time. Then, in completely unplanned conversations with a couple of mentors I mentioned experiences I would like to have. Each of them offered me an opportunity, right away. I also silently sent up an intention to contact someone who had been on my mind, someone who is deeply involved in a subject of my passion. I didn’t really have a particular ‘thing’ I wanted to talk to them about, but I knew I wanted to connect. Shockingly enough, this person ended up emailing me with one of the 4 opportunities I mentioned above. It was our first personal exchange in about a year. And then honestly, I saw I was on a roll so I reached out to someone else, pitching something I always thought would be a fun channel for my messages. It looks like it just may happen.
The thing is, I don’t know where each of these will leave me. I don’t know what the next steps are. But I’m finally understanding that if I want to live in the flow of my creativity and give the world what it needs at the time that it needs it, I just have to trust that if I do the work, the work will just lay itself out for me.
I also think my work is not really to question too hard where this all came from and just be grateful that it happened.