Back At Square One

A strange thing has been happening lately, and I’m almost scared to write about it. I don’t want to frighten it, or make it stop happening, whatever it is.

A couple Thursdays ago I went to my neighbour’s house for a tea and catch-up. While talking to her about my latest perceived obstacle in my career path, I suddenly said, “I think I need to ditch this route. Something about it just doesn’t feel right, I’m going against my grain.”

I felt really light when I said it, even though this kind of left me back at Square One. I didn’t really want to be at Square One because 2016, I had declared, was my year to shine. Does anyone really shine at Square One? I didn’t know, but at that point, I was tired of banging my head against the wall trying to move along a project that was kind of morphing into something I didn’t really want.

I am not kidding you when I say this, but from that very night and over the next 8 days, 4 major opportunities virtually landed in my lap. While all related to writing and speaking, these didn’t have a whole heck of a lot to do with my original focus for this year. Not directly, anyway. I can see how they will all contribute to the success of anything I want to do going forward, though. I guess Square One isn’t such a bad place to be.

So, what happened? Where did this shower of opportunities come from? What started it all?

I think it was a combination of a few things. First, I let go of something – not just the project I was working on, but also the idea of needing to be doing a particular thing at a particular time. Then, in completely unplanned conversations with a couple of mentors I mentioned experiences I would like to have. Each of them offered me an opportunity, right away. I also silently sent up an intention to contact someone who had been on my mind, someone who is deeply involved in a subject of my passion. I didn’t really have a particular ‘thing’ I wanted to talk to them about, but I knew I wanted to connect. Shockingly enough, this person ended up emailing me with one of the 4 opportunities I mentioned above. It was our first personal exchange in about a year. And then honestly, I saw I was on a roll so I reached out to someone else, pitching something I always thought would be a fun channel for my messages. It looks like it just may happen.

The thing is, I don’t know where each of these will leave me. I don’t know what the next steps are. But I’m finally understanding that if I want to live in the flow of my creativity and give the world what it needs at the time that it needs it, I just have to trust that if I do the work, the work will just lay itself out for me.

I also think my work is not really to question too hard where this all came from and just be grateful that it happened.

taslim jaffer, let me out creative

 

 

One thought on “Back At Square One

  1. I can so relate to your article Taslim. By letting go of our perceptions of how life is supposed to go, amazing opportunities can come to fruition, as it has in your case. I too have had to re-evaluate lately many of my goals and expectations, based, if I’m honest, trying to maintain what is the societal norm. When I found myself not meeting those expectations I was very disheartened and internally beat myself up. However, when Mike and I decided to make some big changes for our family and started letting go of the fear (which I still struggle with) amazing things have started to happen . . . Mike got a day shift in the job he is in and we now have evenings together, which is wonderful (he’s been on afternoons for approx. 10 years). I am hopeful that as we move forward this spring will continue to enlighten us all with wonderful surprises. Thank you so much for sharing . . . 🙂

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